THE UNSPOKEN

 

THE UNSPOKEN

Advait pressed his forehead against the cool glass of the window. The train slowed down and pulled into Nashik station, He was standing on this platform after fifteen years. On the hot summer night of 10^th May with one bag and a rage he had left his city completely justified at that time. Now he had come back with a suitcase, a head of greying hair at forty-one, and a heavy feeling in his chest that he could not name. His sister Aditi had called four days ago and told him that their mother was not going to last the week. Her voice had been flat, the way voices get when someone has been strong for too long.

"I will be there," Advait said. There was a pause on the line. A silence of fifteen years in it.

"Okay," Aditi said. Just that. Okay.

On way home in the auto-rickshaw the thoughts of yesterday arrived in succession. He watched the town pass by, some things remained and some had changed. A big mall stood where the old cinema hall used to be. A flyover cut across the road on which he had ridden his bicycle as a boy. The lane to their house was unchanged, narrow, with bougainvillea spilling over the compound wall of the Deshmukh house next door. The red flowers looked too bright for a day like this. He paused at his own gate for a moment before going in. This time the house appeared smaller than he remembered. The paint had gone pale and the garden his mother had attended every morning was still there, but it was not that tidy now. He knocked, even though it was his home. It was instinctively he did that. It just felt wrong to walk in although he had spent his childhood there, but those fifteen years. Aditi opened the door. She had cut her hair short and there were lines around her eyes that had not been there the last time he had seen her face on a video call three Diwalis ago. In person, she looked tired and worn out.

"You came," she said. "Of course I had to, " Advait was a bit flustered. 

She stepped aside to let him in. The house still smelled the same. Fifteen years and the smell had not changed, old wood and incense and something that could only was his mother's cooking, all folded into a single scent and that hit him deep.

"She's sleeping," Aditi said. "The doctor had come in the afternoon. He says maybe two, three days now." Advait just nodded.

Putting his bag down he followed Aditi to the kitchen. She heated up some dal and rice without even asking him if he was hungry and put the plate in front of him and sat across the table with a glass of water, watching him eat the way their mother used to, making sure that they actually finished. The hesitation of fifteen years clearly was showing. They talked but nothing important. The weather, the auto fare from the station and if the salt was ok in the dal. Small words trying to fill a large space.

After dinner, Aditi took him to his old room. She had put fresh sheets on the bed. His old cricket posters were gone from the walls and the room was clean and bare, like a guest room in a house. It looked like a place that was not sure whether to remember the occupant or not.

"Get some rest," she said from the doorway.

"Aditi," Advait said, looking at her.

"We can talk tomorrow," she said. Not with anger, but with a firm expression. He heard her door close. As he lay on the bed the ceiling was the same one he had stared at as a teenager, lying awake with his headphones, planning the life he was going to escape to. He had done it and gone to Pune for college, then Mumbai for work, then further, a career in urban planning which took him across the country. He had built things. Roads, parks, housing projects that thousands of people lived in now and had made a good life for himself, but his own house was fractured.

He had also made a lot of phone calls that were too short and a lot of birthday messages that arrived a day late and a lot of reasons not to come home.

At two in the morning, finally he gave up on sleep and walked out into the hallway. He stopped at his mother's door. It was ajar, he pushed it gently and went in. She was lying on her back, very still, her chest rising and falling slowly. The room was dark except for a small lamp in the corner. She looked thin. Smaller than he had seen her last. Her hair had turned completely white and her face showing with age.

He sat in the chair next to her bed, he did not touch her. He just sat there, watching her breathe, something he had not done in fifteen years. After a while, he got up and went back to the hallway.

That was when he noticed the cupboard which was his father's old wooden one that had always been there. His father had died three years ago. A second heart attack. Advait had come for the funeral, stayed four days, and left. He and Aditi had barely spoken even then.

The bottom drawer of the cupboard was slightly open. Inside was an old tin, it’s lid dented on one side. He remembered that his father used to keep important papers in it. Reaching out he opened the tin. Inside were letters. Not one or two, but a thick stack of them. It was his father's handwriting, that particular slanting script, always in blue ink. They were all addressed to Advait and none of them had been posted. Some of them did not even have envelopes. They were just folded papers, carefully dated, stacked by year.

His hands were shaking as he unfolded the first one. It was from 2011. The year after he had left home.

Advait,

I heard from Suresh uncle that you got the job at the firm in Mumbai. I am not going to pretend that I was not waiting to hear from you. Your mother thinks I am still angry with you, but I am not. I don't know what I am anymore. Maybe I was wrong about the engineering. Maybe I was right. How does it matter now. I just want to know if you are ok. That is all. Your mother doesn't sleep well.

Love Baba.

Advait sat down on the hallway floor, right there, back against the wall and kept reading letter after letter. His father had made a list of him. Read about a housing project in a magazine, a development in Navi Mumbai. A journalist had mentioned the name of the young planner who had designed the community park inside it. His father had torn the page out and kept it. It was folded inside the letter.

I showed this to your mother and she cried, but she told me not to tell you that she cried.

His father had a minor health scare. He didn't call Advait. He wrote a letter instead, and then did not send it.

I thought about calling you, but decided against it. I did not want you to leave your work and come. Also, I was afraid and what if you wouldn't come. That would have been worse, That’s the reason I did not even call you.

His father had found Advait's Instagram, someone must have shown him how. He wrote about a photo Advait had posted at a friend's wedding, in a blue kurta, laughing at something outside the frame.

You looked happy. That is the right word. Happy. I thought you would call sometime. I thought I would call sometime. Neither of us ever did. I don't know whose fault that is. Probably mine.

The last letter was from March 2020 exactly Two years before he died.

Advait,

I am getting older and I spend more time thinking about things I did not say. I was never good at talking, even when you were small. My father did not talk either, maybe that’s an excuse or it’s simply true. Whatever it is but believe me I am proud of you. I should have said it to you. I am saying it now. I am proud of you. The work you do matters. You matter. Come home sometimes. Your mother misses you. I miss you too, though I don't know how to say that out loud. I miss you.

Advait put the letter down on his lap. He pressed the back of his hand against his mouth and sat very still, the way you do when something is trying to break open inside you and at two in the morning and you don't want to wake anyone. He sat like that for a long time and did not hear Aditi come out of her room until she was standing right next to him. She looked at the tin on the floor and the letters in his hand. She had known about them long ago.

"You knew," he said. She sat down on the floor beside him, back against the wall, the way they used to sit as children, watching cricket on the small TV in this same hallway when their parents thought they were asleep.

"I found them when I was going through his things," she said quietly. "After the funeral. I read all of them."

"Why didn't you tell me?" Advait had a lump in his throat.

She was quiet for a moment. "I was not sure would it be ok to tell you. Or maybe," She stopped. "Maybe I was angry."

"At me." Advait said.

"At you. At him. At all of it." She pulled her knees to her chest. "He wrote letters to you for ten years and never sent a single one. The things he could not say out loud. And you were the one who had left. And yet you were the one he was writing to."

Advait did not say anything because he could feel the unfairness of it, just as she had felt it. The silence sat between them.

"I'm sorry," he said resting his head on Aditi’s shoulder.

"You don't have to be sorry for what you chose." She looked at the wall ahead. "I am not angry anymore. I was, for a long time but now I am just tired."

They sat in the quiet hallway. The house breathed around them.

"You never told me," he said slowly, "what happened here after I left."

Aditi looked at him. "It got harder. Baba's blood pressure. Then Aai started having her knee trouble. The house needed fixing constantly. I was working and managing everything at the same time. It was fine and we were managing."

"You gave up your plan," Advait said. "The Delhi one." There was a deep silence and it was heavy.

"Where did you hear that?" Her voice was careful.

"I did not hear it from anyone. I just remembered, you had finished your project and were waiting for a letter that summer. I left before it came but after that I never asked what happened."

Aditi was very still for a moment.

"I had received a reply for the Social Sciences program," she said.

“It was a good college."

"You didn't go."

"No."

The “NO” sat between them, small and heavy as stone.

"Aditi,"

"Don't." Her voice was soft but clear. "Don't say sorry again. There's nothing to apologise for. I had made a choice and I could have gone, but I chose not to." She looked at him in the eye for the first time since they had sat down. "Aai and Baba were not helpless. They would have managed but I just, did not go when I looked at that letter and thought that if I also leave, then who holds this place? Who stays?" She gave a small smile.

"Foolish, maybe."

"Not foolish," Advait said.

"No. Not foolish. Just, what I was." She paused. "What I decided to be."

Advait was now shaking from inside and was feeling bad about her. In spite of so much she had endured and sacrificed she was not bitter and she never complained. But now he could feel her pain. He thought about his own years, the freedom and the choice of making his life. All this time he thought that leaving the house is a kind of courage but he was wrong. Staying without freedom was a bigger courage. Both of them were living their choices.

"I should have called more," he said.

"Yes."

"I should have come back more often."

"Yes."

"I think," he started, then stopped. He tried again. "I think I was afraid of this house, afraid of the feeling I had inside me. Afraid that staying in a small town would dwarf me and my potential. I thought if I stayed away long enough, the thoughts would stop following me."

"Did it?"

"No," he said. "I just carried it somewhere else and labelled it freedom."

A small sound came from their mother's room. A shift in the bed. Both of them went very still and listened. Nothing followed. She was still sleeping.

"She talked about you all the time," Aditi said quietly. "Even when she was pretending not to. She had see something on the news, some new road or overpass, and she would say, that's the kind of thing your brother does."

Advait closed his eyes.

Aditi said. "She missed you terribly and she was proud of you. Both feelings, at the same time. That was very much her."

"And Baba? What did he say? What were his words?"

Aditi thought about it. "Nothing directly. But sometimes in the evenings, when there was nothing on TV, he would step into your room and look at your photo and just say your name - Advait. Just the name. And then nothing after it. As if saying it out loud was enough."

That was the thing that finally broke the dam, not the unsent words on paper, but this. His name, said into a quiet room, as a complete sentence in itself. His father in his old chair, saying his son's name the way you say the name of something precious that you are not sure how to hold.

Advait leaned his head back against the wall. The tears came and trickled down his cheeks. Aditi did not react or put her hand on his shoulder. She simply stayed there beside him and allowed the fifteen years to flow.

When Advait was done, she got up without a word and came back from the kitchen with two cups of chai and sat down on the floor beside him. The sips were the only sound at that time. The chai was too sweet, Aditi had always liked more sugar than anyone else in this family. Advait did not say anything about it, it tasted exactly right.

"I will come back more," he said. "After everything. I will actually come back."

Aditi looked at her cup. "You can stay for a while now, if you want. There's no hurry to leave."

It was an offering which he took.

"Okay," he said.

Advait was on one side of the bed, Aditi on the other. Her breathing had been slow all night, growing softer. And then, somewhere in that golden early hour, it simply stopped. There was no struggle. She looked peaceful and they were holding their mother's hand while she was leaving for her final journey. She had a light smile on her face as if she knew something they did not.

The room was very quiet. Aditi pressed her mother's hand to her cheek and held it there. Advait stayed where he was. Neither of them spoke for a long time.

Later, when the phone calls had been made and the neighbours had come and the house had filled with noise and the movements, Advait stepped out into the garden alone.

He stood there and looked at it. The bougainvillea from the Deshmukh house had spread further over the wall. And along the fence, in a corner a bunch of small white flowers, his mother's jasmine was in full bloom. He had not noticed it last night. It must have just opened.

He stood still and thought about all the things that don't get said between people. Not because the feeling isn't there, but because feeling something and saying it out loud are two completely different abilities, and some families never manage to build both. His father had written it all down and kept it in a tin. His mother had expressed it through quiet pride. Aditi had expressed it by simply not leaving. And he had expressed nothing at all, just gone, and kept going, and told himself that was a life.

All of them loving each other in their own language which they knew which wasn't enough. And all of them knowing it wasn't enough. And none of them knowing how to learn another.

He heard the door open behind him. Aditi came and stood next to him. They looked at the jasmine together.

"She planted that along the fence the year I was born," Aditi said. "She told me once, years ago. I don't think she ever told you."

"No," Advait said. "There's a lot we didn't know about each other."

"Yes," she said.

They stood there in the morning, close enough that their shoulders were almost touching. Two people who had grown up under the same roof, breathing the same air, eating at the same table, and had somehow, across the years, through silence and distance and all the things that went unsaid, become strangers to each other. Not through cruelty but just through the slow, quiet drifting that happens when no one ever says wait, stop, I need to tell you something.

But now, in the light of this morning, with their mother just gone and their father's letters still on the hallway floor where Advait had left them the night before, they were finding their way back.

Not with big speeches nor with explanations or apologies and not trying to cover the fifteen years in one go.

Just standing in the garden. Beside each other. Finally, after all this time, not looking away.

The jasmine moved very slightly in the morning air as if acknowledging the new found connection.

I, ME and MYSELF

 

I, ME and MYSELF

The life at the City Park had no schedule, no entry, and no exit. It was just a floor of infinite glass reflecting a sky that refused to turn dark. I sat there, my pulse thrumming in my ears, anchored to a wooden bench that felt more real than the ground beneath it. This was not a place where everything was rushing, it was a place for reckoning. I had spent thirty years running from the man I was supposed to be, constructing a life out of distractions and noise, but here, the silence was a vacuum. I was waiting for him to arrive, and for the first time in my life, I had nowhere left to hide. I had always known we would have to meet eventually. It’s a strange thing, isn't it? To live inside a body and yet feel like you have locked the rightful owner in the basement. I checked my watch, but the hands were not moving. Time here did not tick, it just drifted.

Then, I saw him.

He was not a younger version of me, nor was he older. He was just... me. He wore a sweater which I had thrown away years ago because someone told me the color did not suit me. He walked with a stride I recognized from the old movies - unfiltered, heavy-footed, and entirely unapologetic.

My heart performed a somersault which was a slow, painful roll in my chest. I wanted to run away, but my shadow was already stitched to his across the glass floor. As he came closer, I felt that familiar, icy dread. I knew what was coming. I knew the one question that had been rotting in the back of my mind like a fresh fruit left in a lunchbox in the summer.

He sat down next to me. He did not look angry. He just looked tired, the way you look after a very long walk through a very beautiful forest. For a long time, we just watched the horizon change from amber to a deep, bruised purple. "You look like you have seen a ghost," he said. His voice was my voice, but without the practiced "professional" edge which I had spent a decade honing. It was lower, grainier, and infinitely more honest. "I feel like I am looking at one," I whispered. I kept my eyes fixed on my polished shoes. I had polished them this morning until they shone, a habit that I had picked up to prove to the world that I had my life together.

"You have been busy," he noted, nudging my shiny shoe with his scuffed sneaker. "A lot of meetings. A lot of lists. A lot of making sure everyone else is comfortable while you sit in rooms with the air conditioning turned too low." I nodded in agreement, the lump in my throat growing until it felt like I had swallowed a stone. This was it. The moment I had been afraid of. I turned to him, my eyes stinging, and finally let the words out.

"Where were you?" I asked, my voice cracking. "Where were you all this time?"

I expected him to shout. I expected him to list every hobby I had abandoned, every dream I had traded for "stability," and every time I had silenced my own intuition to please a stranger. I expected an allegation.

Instead, he reached out and took my hand. His skin was warm. "I was not anywhere else," he said softly. "I was right here. I was in the pauses between your breaths when you were too stressed to think. I was in the songs you hummed when you thought no one was listening." 

"But I left you," I argued, the tears finally spilling over. "I ignored you. I grew up and I left you behind because I thought you were too loud, too messy, and too much for the world to handle."

He leaned back, looking up at the purple sky. "You did not leave me. You just put me in your pocket for safekeeping. You thought you had to be someone else to survive the 'real world,' and honestly? You did a pretty good job of surviving. You got us through some really hard years."

The "Where was I?" I had feared was not a question of abandonment. It was a question of endurance. He had not been lost, but he had been waiting for the environment to be safe enough for him to come back out. "I'm sorry," I sobbed, burying my face in my hands. "I am so sorry I made you stay in the dark for so long."

He did not tell me it was okay, not in that dismissive way people do. He just put his arm around my shoulders and pulled me close. We sat there for an eternity or a second, it was impossible to tell.

"The thing about meeting yourself," he whispered, "is that you don't need to apologize for the ways you learned to stay alive. But now that we are both here... maybe we could try being 'too much' together?"

I looked up and saw some children forming a train their arms entangled in each other. Seeing me seeing them, they stopped as if the train had arrived at the station. The train was a colorful, clattering thing, covered in stickers and smelling like rain and old books. It was full of life and zest.

I stood up, and for the first time in years, I did not check my watch. I did not look at my reflection to see if my hair was perfect. I just reached out, took his hand, and together, we hopped onto the train.

THE SQUARE PEGS AT VARANASI GHAT

 

The sun was an orange ball hanging over the Ganges, its light reflecting off the ripples like thousands of tiny floating lamps. Advait sat on the cold stone steps of the Dashashwamedh Ghat, his heart heavy with the kind of modern-day exhaustion that sleep cannot fix. Amidst the swirling incense and the gathering crowds, his eyes were drawn to an elderly couple sitting just a few feet away. They looked like any other retired couple finding solace in their golden years - quiet, unassuming, and weathered by time.

The man, Arun, wore a simple checked shirt tucked into neatly pressed trousers, his face a map of lived experiences. Beside him sat Arunima, draped in a crisp cotton saree, her silver hair adorned with a fresh ring of jasmine that scented the air around them. To Advait, they looked like the typical middle-class pair, perhaps living on a modest pension and navigating the slow twilight of their lives. He expected them to be staring blankly at the river, lost in memories of a bygone era.

But as Advait watched, the illusion of the "typical" elderly couple shattered. Arun reached into his pocket and pulled out a top-of-the-line smartphone with a practiced flick of his wrist. He not only took a photo, but he adjusted the exposure and framed Arunima against the shimmering water with the precision of a seasoned photographer. He moved with an agility that defied his age, crouching slightly to get the perfect angle.

Arunima did not shy away or look confused, but she posed with a regal, effortless elegance, her smile radiant and genuine. A moment later, her own device chimed. A sleek, latest-model phone appeared out of her leather sling bag. She handled the device with incredible ease and confidence. She answered a video call, her voice warm as she greeted her son and grandchildren in London. Advait sat stunned at the pro level confidence of navigating the interface without a single moment of hesitation.

As the sun dipped lower, the couple began filming each other, laughing as they captured selfies with the ancient temples in the background. Advait was hooked. In a world where most young people are glued to screens in isolation, these two were using technology to amplify their togetherness. Their happiness was not just a facade, but it was a visible, vibrating energy that seemed to shield them from the chaos of the crowded ghat.

Driven by a sudden, desperate need to understand their secret, Advait hesitantly struck up a conversation. He complimented their spirit and asked the question that had been gnawing at him: "How are you both so genuinely happy? Most people your age seem overwhelmed by the world today, yet you two look more alive than I feel." Arun looked at him, his eyes crinkling with a kindness that felt like a warm embrace.

"Happiness is not something you find sitting under a tree, son," Arun said, his voice steady. "It is something you create, piece by piece, every single morning." He looked at Arunima, and then back at Advait. "The world will always try to tell you who to be. But the most important lesson we learned is this: Do not try to fit yourself into others. A square peg never fits in a round hole, and trying to force it only breaks the peg."

Advait felt a sting in his eyes. He thought of his own life - the corporate ladder he hated, the social expectations he suffocated under. Arunima noticed his silence and added, "We spent years trying to be the 'perfect' couple for the society. In our younger days, I was told to be a silent shadow, and Arun was pressured to be a ruthless provider. We were miserable because we were living someone else’s script. We were square pegs bleeding because we tried to fit into round holes."

Arun nodded, his expression darkening for a moment as he recalled their "down" years. "There was a time, decades ago, when we lost our first business and nearly our home. I was drinking to forget, and Arunima was fading into a deep, dark depression. We were together, but we were miles apart. We were following the 'traditional' path of suffering in silence because that’s what was expected of our generation."

"We realized that if we did not change, the darkness would consume us. We stopped caring about the neighbors’ whispers and started caring about our own souls. We embraced our quirks, our love for tech, and our own way of viewing the world. Once we stopped trying to fit in," Arunima whispered, "we finally started to fly. That was the first step toward this happiness you see today."

Confused by the contrast of their lifestyle, Advait asked why they came to the ghat every day if they were so modern. "To preserve and nourish our roots," they replied in unison. Advait gestured to their expensive phones. "But you are so high-tech! How do the roots fit in?" Arun smiled deeply. "Tradition and technology can go together, Advait. But remember - Only tradition breeds the discipline that makes life meaningful. Without that discipline, technology is just a distraction that will eventually drown you."

Advait then asked about their incredible synchronicity. They seemed to move as one soul in two bodies. Arunima reached out and gently touched Arun’s hand, a small gesture that carried the weight of decades. "Love does not require words alone," she said softly. "It is felt through the heart. It is about investing attention even when the other person is boring and giving care when they are at their worst," saying this she winked at Arun.

She shared a story from a few years back when Arun had suffered a stroke. For months, he was not able to speak. "In that silence, we learned the true language of love," she said. "It was not about the poems or the promises, but it was about the way I held his hand and the way he looked at me. It was the touch, the concern, and the absolute refusal to let go when the world got dark. You have to invest time in each other long before the crisis hits."

Arun added, "Advait, even we have had our share of ups and downs, terrible fights where we did not speak for days, and moments where we thought we had nothing left to give. But we overcame them because we chose to see each other as individuals, not just as 'husband' or 'wife.' We gave each other the space to be human, to fail, and to grow back together."

As the bells of the Ganga Aarti began to ring, the sound vibrating through the very stones of the ghat, Advait felt a profound shift within himself. He had come to Varanasi seeking a miracle from the gods, but he had found it in the lives of two ordinary people who had mastered the extraordinary art of being themselves. They were modern yet rooted, tech-savvy yet disciplined, and most importantly, they were free.

The couple stood up, ready to immerse themselves in the prayer, their faces lit by the first flickers of the massive brass lamps. Advait watched them, feeling a sense of clarity he had not known in years. He realized that his life was not a series of mistakes, but a collection of "round holes" he needed to stop trying to fit into. As he bid them goodbye, he knew he would never forget the square pegs of Varanasi.

THE BLOODY PIGMENT

THE BLOODY PIGMENT.....

"Arjun's Prism" a exclusive "By Invitation Only" art gallery nestled in a narrow lane of Versova covered by the swaying Palm trees and facing the Bombay sea. The gallery was pristine white, but "The Creation of the Womb" felt like a bruise on the wall. It was a chaotic swirl of deep crimson and oily blacks, pulsating with a strange, wet energy that made Aditi’s stomach turn. To her, it looked like a surgical nightmare which was bloody, visceral, and raw. It was something that should have been hidden away in a dark basement. But Advait stood frozen, his eyes glazed as if he were looking into the face of a long-lost lover, he was literally sinking into the wet layers of the canvas.

Arjun, their college friend, beamed with pride, though his smile did not quite reach his eyes, he looked exhausted, as if the art were draining him. "He’s a genius, Advait," Arjun whispered, his voice sounding hollow and metallic in the quiet room. "Balram doesn’t just paint; he captures things... things that don't want to be caught." Aditi felt a sudden chill crawl up her spine.

"I will buy it," Advait said as if had been hypnotized. "It's for 85000.00 Advait," Arjun smirked and said. "Don't worry," Advait replied without taking his eyes off fromthe swirls. The swirls seemed to be drowning him. Aditi was surprised, "Advait you would pay 85k for this blotch?" Advait looked at him with his red pupils glowing. Aditi stepped back afraid. Although the price tag of Rs. 85,000.00 was a drop in the bucket for them, but she would have paid double just to have the canvas burned and the ashes scattered in the sea.

"Advait you should meet Balram as he would hand over the painting to you, that's his way with the clients" Arjun said. The meeting with Balram took place in a cramped, windowless back room that smelled of turpentine and rotting flowers. Balram looked as if he had been hollowed out, his skin color was of old parchment and his fingernails stained with crusty red. When he shook Advait’s hand, Aditi noticed that his grip did not just hold him, but it seemed to cling, his long fingers wrapping around Advait’s wrist like a vine. He was "off" in a way that defied logic, moving with a jerky, unnatural grace which made her pulse race and a strong desire to run away from that room.

"You feel it, don't you? The pull of the origin?" Balram's voice  sounding like the dry leaves dancing on the stone of a grave. Advait nodded slowly, his usual sharp wit and skepticism replaced by a hollow, haunting devotion. He was not just buying a painting, but it appeared he was surrendering to it, his eyes tracking every movement of Balram’s stained hands. Aditi tried to pull him away, but Advait’s skin felt unnaturally cold, his muscles rigid and unresponsive to her touch, as if he was turning into stone.

As they spoke, the air in the room grew heavy and thick, making it hard for Aditi to breathe, and the air in the room smelled faintly old blood. Balram began describing his process of painting, talking about "life-blood" and "the bridge between the seen and the unseen," his eyes never leaving Advait’s. Every word felt like a spiral being woven into the air. Aditi could not make out any sense of his talks, to her horror, Advait did not just agree to buy the first painting but he signed a contract for three more, his signature was shaky, jagged, and unrecognizable on the paper. 

That night, "The Creation of the Womb" hung in their bedroom, and the silence of the house became deafening and predatory. Aditi lay awake, watching the crimson oils shift, the shapes on the canvas seemingly rearranging themselves when she blinked. She could hear the faint, rhythmic thumping coming from the wall, a heartbeat, slow, wet, and heavy. Beside her, Advait breathed in perfect sync with the painting, his chest rising and falling in a terrifying, mechanical rhythm. He was no longer dreaming his own dreams.

Within a week, Advait began to change physically, his vitality leaking out of him like water from a cracked jar. He stopped eating, his face had turned pale and the skin  had lost it's luster, mirroring the translucent complexion of Balram. He spent hours staring at the wall where the three new paintings were supposed to be hung, he would  whisper to the empty space in a language which Aditi could not understand. When she tried to scream for help or call a doctor, her voice came out as a raspy, thin whistle, as if the air was being sucked out of her lungs by an invisible, hungry force.

The second painting arrived at midnight, delivered by a silent Arjun who refused to look Aditi in the eye and fled before she could speak. It was titled "The Severing," and it depicted a figure that looked remarkably like Advait, his shadow being peeled away from his body by a dozen clawed, translucent hands. It was then Aditi realized that Balram was not just painting fantasies but he was painting a countdown to her husband's disappearance, documenting the theft of Advait's soul in oil and pigment.

By the time the third painting was due, Advait was a mere ghost in his own home, a hollow shell of the man she loved. He no called out Aditi's name, his eyes reflecting only the dark, swirling void of the canvases which lined their walls like open wounds. Aditi found the contract in his study, and her heart stopped when she touched the paper. The ink was not black but a fading, metallic brown, the exact color of dried blood. The "price" was not just the money they had paid, it was a total transfer of essence from the living to the canvas.

On the final night, Balram appeared at their door without being called, his presence bringing a freezing fog into the house. He did not need a key, the house seemed to open for him like the wound. He walked into the bedroom where Advait sat cross-legged on the floor, his skin now the same parchment-gray as the artist's. As Balram touched the final canvas, Advait’s body simply collapsed like an empty suit of clothes. The painting was no longer empty; it showed a man trapped behind a layer of oil, his face pressed against the surface, screaming in a silence that would last forever.

Aditi was pained and afraid with the turn of events. Overcoming her fear and driven by desperation she grabbed the heavy brass lamp in the room and swung it at the final canvas, expecting the fabric to tear. Instead, the surface felt like rubbery flesh, absorbing the blow with a thud. Across the room, Balram did not even flinch, he simply turned his head with a slow, predatory grace, his eyes now glowing red. "You cannot break what has already been integrated, Aditi," he whispered, his voice deep, slow and vibrating through the air in the room. "Advait is not in the room anymore. He is the pigment. He is the medium. He is finally eternal."

Panic gripped her, and she ran for the front door, her mind racing toward the only person she thought could help. She scrambled to her car and sped toward Arjun’s apartment, her hands shaking so violently that she could barely steer. She banged his apartment door till he opened it, sobbing, begging him to call the police or some kind of exorcist. But as she entered his living room, the air turned ice-cold. Arjun was sitting at a large mahogany table, bathed in the flickering light of thirteen black candles. He was meticulously cleaning a set of silver brushes, his face devoid of the warmth she had known for years.

"I knew you would come here, Aditi," Arjun said, his voice devoid of emotion. He stood up, and for the first time, she noticed the symbol branded into the hollow of his throat, a twisted, umbilical knot that matched the signature on Balram’s paintings. He was not a victim of the art but he was the scout. "Do you think a man like Balram finds his subjects by accident? He is the Hand, but I am the Eye. I find the souls with the right frequency, the ones hungry enough, like Advait, to let us in."

Horror enveloped her as Arjun revealed the truth: they were members of The Gilded Shroud, an occult tribe that believed true immortality could only be achieved by trapping living consciousness within "The Eternal Gallery." Arjun had spent years befriending them, waiting for the moment Advait’s internal spark was bright enough to harvest. "Every painting Balram finishes feeds the tribe," Arjun explained, stepping closer. "We don't just take lives; we preserve them in a state of perpetual, conscious equilibrium. Advait is part of something much larger now. He is the foundation of our Master’s next work."

Suddenly, the shadows in the corners of Arjun's room began to thicken and stretch, taking the jagged shapes of the figures from "The Severing." Aditi backed away, but the door behind her slammed shut and the locks turned by themselves. From the darkness, Balram stepped out, carrying a fresh, blank canvas that seemed to pulse with a faint heartbeat. "The contract Advait signed had a hidden clause," Balram spoke with a coarse voice, his stained fingers twitching with excitement. "A soul is never complete without its mirror. He is calling for you from inside the red oil, Aditi. He is lonely in the dark."

The two men closed in on her, their movements synchronized like a well-rehearsed ritual. Aditi now realized with terror that her repulsion toward the painting had not been a warning to save Advait, but it had been the very thing that marked her as the perfect "contrast" for the collection. As Arjun held her arms with a strength that felt supernatural, Balram dipped a brush into a jar of dark, viscous fluid. As the first stroke of wet paint touched her forehead, she felt her bones begin to soften and her voice dissolve, her reality narrowing down to a single, terrifying point of oil and canvas.

The transition was not a sudden snap, but a slow, agonizing dissolution of her physical form. Aditi felt her skin turn into a thick, tacky substance, her screams muffling as if she were being submerged in heavy syrup. Inside the canvas, the world was a distorted nightmare of smeared colors and suffocating heat. She found herself standing in a landscape made of dried leaves and flowing ink, where the sky was a bruised purple and the ground vibrated with the collective moans of a thousand trapped souls. Then, she saw him - Advait was standing a short distance away, his body translucent and flickering like a dying candle, his eyes wide with and devoid of the sparkle.

They reached for each other, but their hands passed through one another like smoke. "Aditi," he whispered, the sound vibrating through the very fabric of the painting. "We are not just art... we are the fuel." As they huddled together in the crimson gloom, the "sky" above them peeled back like an eyelid. Through the transparent layer of the varnish, they could see the "Real World" magnified and distorted. Balram and Arjun stood over the canvas, their faces looming like giant moons. They were laughing, their voices booming like thunderclaps that vibrated and shook the very foundations of the painted world.

Aditi realized that the only way to fight back was to manipulate the medium they were trapped in. She discovered that by focusing her intense rage and grief, she could make the paint around her boil and shift. She reached into the "ground". the deep, dark pigments of the lower layers and began to pull at the strokes Balram had laid down. If they were the paint, then they were also the weapon. She grabbed a streak of sharp dried oil and felt it harden into a blade in her hand. "Advait, help me!" she cried. "If we can't leave, we will tear this world from the inside out!"

Together, they began a frantic, rhythmic assault on the boundaries of their prison. They did not just move but they tore at the brushstrokes, ripping through the "Creation of the Womb" and bleeding into the neighboring canvases. They surged through the painted landscape of the damned, causing the paintings on the walls of the physical room to blister and weep. Outside, Balram’s triumphant smile vanished. He watched in horror as his masterpieces began to liquefy, the expensive oils running down the walls like melting wax. The "perfect" subjects were no longer behaving as  they should have instead they were a riot of color and fury.

The gallery air turned toxic as the scent of the occult oils filled the room. Arjun tried to stabilize the canvases, his branded throat glowing with a flickering light, but the power of two souls acting in unison was too much for the ritual to contain. The frames began to crack under the pressure of Aditi and Advait’s combined will. A sharp tear appeared in the center of the final painting, and instead of more paint, a cold, unnatural wind began to howl from the breach. The "Gilded Shroud" had never accounted for a love that refused to be curated.

With a sound like a gunshot, the final canvas exploded. The force of the spiritual decompression threw Balram and Arjun against the white walls, pinning them there as the swirling, angry pigments engulfed them. For a second Aditi and Advait stood in the center of the room, their forms glowing with a blinding, divine light. They were not fully human, and they weren't quite paint but they were something new, a powerful energy born of the canvas. As the gallery began to burn with a fire that consumed only the art, they turned toward the insane cultists, ready to show them what "eternal life" truly felt like.

A BEAUTIFUL MESS

 

A Beautiful Mess........

Advait felt like a puzzle with no solution, and he was sick and tired of people trying to solve him. Every time he spoke about his struggles, he could see the machines whirring in people's heads, ready to dish out the right advice, the perfect answer that would make everything neat and tidy again. But life wasn't a five-star hotel, where everything would be neat and organized. He was like any other normal human being, a bit different. He had his mood swings, his sadness one day was not the same as his sadness the next. His anger was a fleeting storm, and his joy a bird that would perch for a moment and then fly away. He was a creature of constant change, and longed for someone to see him not as a problem to be fixed, but to be able to appreciate his chaos.

He remembered a past relationship where every conversation felt like a diagnostic session. His ex would say, "I know what you need," or "You just do this, and it will be sorted." He felt a tightening in his chest every time, a suffocating feeling of being seen through a lens of judgment and expectation. She was looking for the finished painting, not the crooked lines and the messy canvas. She wanted him to be a still photograph, not a moving film. He knew her intentions were good, but it made him feel more and more like a failure. He was always disappointing her by not staying in one emotional phase long enough for her to "solve" him.

Then came Aditi. She was different from the very beginning. One evening, Advait was sitting on his couch, a bunch of thoughts tangled in his brain. He didn't want to talk about it, didn't want to hear any advices. As Aditi entered the room, she saw Advait sitting and immediately sensed his feelings. She simply sat down beside him, not saying a word, put her hand over his shoulder. She didn't ask "What's wrong?" or try to cheer him up with a silly joke. She just existed in the silence with him, her presence a soft blanket of acceptance. It was the first time in a long time he didn't feel the pressure to explain himself or to be okay.

After a few minutes, the dam broke, and he began to pour, his voice soft and raw. "It's not one thing," he said, looking at the floor. "I feel like I'm a different person every hour. My problems are like clouds, they evaporate and reform and change shape. And every time I try to talk about them, people are looking for the permanent sun. I'm not the same person I was an hour ago, or a minute ago. Are we not two shape-shifters looking at each other." Advait was probably looking for a validation. Aditi listened without interruption, her gaze gentle. When he finished, she didn't offer a solution. She just put her hand on his, her touch a grounding warmth. "I know," she said quietly. "I feel it too. My anxiety today is a sharp, jagged stone, but tomorrow it might just be blunt. It's a mess, isn't it? But a beautiful mess. I don't want to solve you, Advait. I don't want to fix your clouds. I just want to watch them with you."

Her words were soothing, like a balm on a painful head. He realized that all this time, he had been fighting himself, trying to become the person others wanted him to be, stable, predictable, and fixed. But here was Aditi, telling him that his constant evolution was not a flaw, but a part of him to be cherished. He looked at her, truly seeing her for the first time, not as a mirror but as a connected soul. 

She was not trying to describe him; she simply accepted him. That night, for the first time ever, Advait felt truly seen. He was not judged, nor advised. The heavy knot in his brain hadn't completely disappeared, but it felt lighter, less suffocating. He understood now that he didn't need to be solved.

He just needed to be accepted and appreciated for the mess that he would always be. And in Aditi, he had found someone who could do just that, with a quiet strength that was more powerful than any answer.